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New Day

Every day the sun comes up. And with that comes an opportunity to view life with renewed optimism and energy.

Today was no exception. I realized that the dark cloud that had been following me dissipated while I slept. 

The world itself was the same, in fact a nasty storm had added to the chaos by hammering Louisiana and Texas with Cat 4 forces overnight.

But, for some reason, my skies cleared. My breaths deepened, my shoulders lifted, my spirit decided to lighten the hell up.

Was it my guardian angels answering my soft plea for guidance through this shitstorm? Was it the endless hours of Qi Gong finally taking hold and settling my nervous system and emotions? Not sure, but something (or somethings) worked. And well.

For this I am grateful, for obvious reasons.

Today was a day of myriad domestic tasks, one of simple pleasures derived from creating order from chaos.  There was cooking, there was tidying, there was organizing, there was a calm from focus on just those things, nothing else.

Also, we had a new furnace installed, which means less concern around whether the aged heater we have been living with would perform for one more winter. Now we feel good about the cold months to come.

It's still hot as Hell out there, with little chance of cooling rainfall, but for some reason the oppressive feeling has dispersed.

For the subtle shift, I am eternally thankful, because, s'rsly, I do NOT like being so tired.

Onward.

And thanks be to whatever/whoever shifted my shit from dark and stormy to light pink and full of hope and potential.

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