To say a metamorphosis has occurred would be an understatement.
To admit to no longer knowing where or how I fit in, exactly, would be to admit uncertainty in the face of great change and opportunity.
To look around each day and realize how much I missed during my reinvention, how so many of life's little pleasures were not mine to enjoy, would be an admission of my extreme focus, albeit a focus with a cost.
But all of these are true, and in the weeks since graduation I've begun to return to my self, to my life, to the ability to enjoy subtle gifts each day.
Yes, I am very very focused on preparing for national exams, and yes, I study hard every day. But I am slowly trying to rediscover my life.
There is the garden in the morning. Long walks/jogs. Rainy afternoons. Cooking. Smoking (not cigarettes, meats. We bought a smoker and I am the one in charge..it's great!)
There's Bernie the Wonder Granddog, my amazing son, my incredible husband, our two silly, loving cats, friends who have been there....
So much to see, do, and be as I develop the new iteration of me.
Hugs and much love,
Stevie
To admit to no longer knowing where or how I fit in, exactly, would be to admit uncertainty in the face of great change and opportunity.
To look around each day and realize how much I missed during my reinvention, how so many of life's little pleasures were not mine to enjoy, would be an admission of my extreme focus, albeit a focus with a cost.
But all of these are true, and in the weeks since graduation I've begun to return to my self, to my life, to the ability to enjoy subtle gifts each day.
Yes, I am very very focused on preparing for national exams, and yes, I study hard every day. But I am slowly trying to rediscover my life.
There is the garden in the morning. Long walks/jogs. Rainy afternoons. Cooking. Smoking (not cigarettes, meats. We bought a smoker and I am the one in charge..it's great!)
There's Bernie the Wonder Granddog, my amazing son, my incredible husband, our two silly, loving cats, friends who have been there....
So much to see, do, and be as I develop the new iteration of me.
Hugs and much love,
Stevie
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