Skip to main content

Stormy Tuesday, with a chance of showers too....

The emotions, to say they're wildly fluctuating would be an exaggeration, but they are certainly not balanced and I am so not centered and I'm finding it really hard to maintain my train of thought and I'm now even more worried about my son moving to Abu Dhabi now that they're further limiting Blackberry communications, and my daughter has a stomach bug.

But other than that, everything's cool in my world.

Son heads to Abu Dhabi this Saturday, early evening my time.

Daughter heads to Providence, RI, this Saturday, before lunch.

Hubby just informed me we're committed to a dinner at his department head's house Saturday night for a 'casual evening with the new headmaster and his wife.'

Are you kidding me? WTF?

Of all the things I want to be doing Saturday night, I'm pretty sure schmoozing with the new guy (hub's boss for hell sake) is NOT on the list.

My list looks more like this:

Take a nap after first wave of absolute searingly mind blowing grief (and its resultant tears) have passed.

Maybe go get my toes done some silly color with a silly flower on my big toes like my daughter likes to get.

Have some tea and a cookie or a light sweet dessert.

Sit on the patio and listen to the birds, swinging and allowing the new reality to wash over me.

Hang out with Hubby and say nothing, but just 'be' for as long as it takes to gentle a bit.

Sip on a nice (really nice) glass of wine and reflect on how absolutely blessed I am, and bask in the fact that both of my progeny are on the way to live their dreams. That they are both independent, strong, courageous human beings for whom I have the deepest respect layered over that impossibly thick Mama love layer.

That is what I am envisioning. Not a schmooze fest.

And that's pretty much all I have to say about that.

Labels

Labels:

Comments

  1. Lemon GloriaAugust 3, 2010 at 7:59 PM

    I totally support the Saturday you want over the Saturday you're committed to. Your version sounds lovely and relaxing. Also, I love love love getting my toes done and having a pretty flower on the big toe. Especially with a rhinestone in the middle.

    Wishing the best of luck and safe travels to your kids! And quick recovery to you. Goodbying family is very hard.

    ReplyDelete
  2. StevieAugust 5, 2010 at 3:03 PM

    Thanks! There's a part of me that feels super selfish even voicing this sentiment, but honestly, I feel like a mid-sized pachyderm is sitting right on my chest...and know that the simple act of breathing on Saturday..will take much much more effort than ever before.

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Hello there 48

And where on earth did 35-47 go??? But I'm being overly dramatic. Again. See, four dozen? Not such a bad place to be when you're me. I've done a lot, I've seen a lot, I've raised a family and landed airplanes and docked yachts and landed (then released of course!) a marlin and climbed mountains and run a LOT of miles and loved deeply and long and hard and felt..so much that, surprisingly did not kill me..that I feel stronger and more centered and energized than in a long time. And I'm blessed with more than one person can ever rightly expect in one lifetime. And I now possess the wisdom to observe a nanosecond longer than I would have 20 years ago before jumping headlong into a new adventure. Which means many less mistakes but still the desire to stretch and grow and be better and more open and generally less judgemental and overall more accepting and mostly, mostly, knowing that this gift of life is precious and special and mine to experience any way ...
2 comments
Read more

It's been a minute

Oh, what a summer it's been! Heat, the likes of which we have never seen seems to be enveloping the planet. They told us this would happen, and it is.  Now what? Is it time to think underground bunkers? To really explore moon colonies? To continue, on an individual basis to do what we feel we can to help the greater effort? We bought a hybrid two years ago. We'll probably buy an electric car once we feel like the infrastructure is in place, but right now, it's not.  We recycle. Glass ( WHO is drinking all of that wine?! I ask myself each time I toss the bottles into the big bin.). Food. We compost all but animal products, and use it in the garden.  Cardboard/cans/plastics go in the recycle bin each Tuesday. My husband thinks the whole recycle thing is a big scam, and that all of the recycling and trash gets taken to the same place - the dump - because there isn't adequate staffing to sort and really carry out the recycle process.  I feel this is a cynical view, but ...
Post a Comment
Read more

More angst on the unfinished book

Bear with me here, as I'm nearly at a decision point with this project. Really, I am. As I've reread and contemplated writing the finish, then going back and scrubbing and editing like crazy and generally attempting to update a piece I began so long ago, I've become exhausted. Repeatedly. Last night, in a text exchange with Daughter, I explained I'd picked up the manuscript again and was seriously thinking of finishing it. And she replied, 'Mom, you should just start something new. That thing is almost 20 years old now, and you're a completely different person than you were when you started it. Just know that I look forward to a finished project out of you one day, and really, why not go for something more current and stop wasting time on the old stuff you'll practically have to rewrite anyway? ' Out of the mouths of babes, right?
2 comments
Read more