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So I didn't shame my family after all.

After the Chinese man with many letters after his name shifted my universe in a way that made me question my ability to pursue this new endeavor (and whether I could actually retain anything of substance..anything..) and I had my little intensely annoying self-doubt party, I calmed down a little.

Mostly because my dear friends can do that-calm me down when I've managed to work myself into a tizzy and stay in some hyper-freaked out mode for much longer than one would consider normal. Ahem.


This means Love. Happy Valentine's Day!


So thank you sweet Daughter, and sane and funny Son, and Hubby, and all of my friends..who encouraged me to put some perspective around the first exam of my new program.

When he handed back our graded tests the other day,  my prof made eye contact with me and said, 'Very nice work. You're learning well.'

My jaw dropped, and when I looked down and realized I'd somehow managed to pull off an A...I nearly passed out.

Onward. But whew!




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