Desert Magnolia

As I age, as I continue to move through this lovely and crazy life, I realize that knowing oneself is the most challenging of all feats. We are born in ourselves, and from that point on depart from the known into everyone else's version of reality. We spend our childhoods developing simple skills, then teen years surviving our hormones, then young adult years moving through whatever awaits us after secondary school. Some of us go on to college. Some of us work, do things other people think we should do, then eventually give up on our dreams.  Some of us do that, then decide 'Fuck that', and do what we need to do anyway. Some of us bloom early. Some of us bloom later. Some of us remain buds (in the floral sense) for our entire lives. For those that manage to bloom, wowza. For those that remain buds, all is not lost. There will be a time when blooming will happen. Some of us are blessed with enormous amounts of energy that help us power through. Some of us are

Nobody sleeps during a full moon. During Cosmo's moon, there was sex. During harvest moons, there is, well, celebration of harvest. And during this crazy moon we've been experiencing over the last few days? Planets are aligning in ways they haven't in 70 years, nobody seems to be getting any sleep, and boy is there energy to spare in the air. It's Summer Solstice 2016, and boy it's a doozy. It's so hot, so energetic, that we've all just kind of given in and are hoping we can make it through to a calmer and cooler place, hopefully soon. I saw some clouds today above the Sangre De Cristos. I wanted to get out of my car, shimmy around and do a really happy, very provocative rain dance. Provocative to the rain, that is. I'm pretty much too damned hot and too damned stressed to get jiggy with it in a Bahamian, let's drink some rum and celebrate life like hedonists, ok? kind of way. Just sayin'. Stay cool, get jiggy if it works for y

It has decided to be summer now, after weeks of fluctuating between cool and cooler.... The A/C is on high. I am trying to study, but really don't want to ...due to a general weightiness that has settled over me, no doubt the heat is just slowing me down for the moment. So, instead of pressing through and forcing myself to do something I don't really have the energy to do right now I am honoring my state of mind and just relaxing a little.... I have begun serious study for my BioMed exam, and reviewing the material is making me realize that I have in fact learned a great deal during my journey through this program, but more importantly is I have begun to look at things, all things, differently.  I am not sure when it began, the shift to this new view, but it has taken hold and infuses my being with an appreciation for the beauty and complexity of life, of the human body, of the human condition, of the universe in general. I have learned facts and data, I have examined ca