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Look, a squirrel!

Some days it's just hard to focus. Today is one of those for me.

What I should be doing is writing at least one, if not two, case studies that are due this and next Monday, respectively.

What I have been doing is...random.

Get up
Eat breakfast
Announce to hubby that I will be unable to play until I get my case study(s) done
Make bed
Start a load of laundry
Read a chapter in new beach book 
Weigh myself
Decide to move my body (yes this is directly related to prior item..ahem...)
Move body
Change into warm comfies, ie sweats and fleece
Find recipe for Grandma Alice's Beans and Rice
Text hubby about whether he's going to be anywhere near a grocery store
Move laundry from washer to dryer
Boot up computer, locate case study document in progress, make some edits
Send hubby list of items I need for dinner recipe
Search for some information, get seriously distracted after initial search frustrates me
Spend half hour on some strange journey on the Web popping into compelling headlines
Decide to write a post to document this insanity/procrastination/avoidance
Write post 

My life? Either so complex I can barely manage it, or so simple I'm missing the point some days.

Just sayin'.

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